Mediocrity knocking!

QLC, anyone?

The quarterlife crisis (QLC) is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the ages of 21 - 29. The term is named by analogy with mid-life crisis. It is now recognized by many therapists and professionals in the mental health field. (wikipedia)

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

· frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career (I love being in a relationship with books. I can't write and I can't be a librarian. So all I am is a reader.)

· confusion of identity (I know.)

· insecurity regarding the near future (definitely until the gas price becomes affordable again.)

· insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals (ha!)

· insecurity regarding present accomplishments (hindi na ko natuto mag-violin, and I can never be a real yogini.)

· re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships (hmmm.)

· disappointment with one's job (not naman disappointed. maybe bored?)

· nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life (I miss being carefree AND being careless.)

· tendency to hold stronger opinions (most likely!)

· boredom with social interactions (anti -social ba kamo?)

· loss of closeness to high school and college friends (I live in another mountain now, if that's what you mean.)

· financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.) (I think about money all the time. tsk.)

· loneliness

· a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you. (I couldn't care less.)

If you want to read more on QLC, click this and this.

Introspection: 

It's comforting to know that what I'm going through is recognized by health professionals and experienced by my peers. Not that I want anyone else feeling this way, but at least I know I'm not crazy. Ho-hum...

"I'd rather do nothing and be happy then do something I know I don't love." - Jack Fuller

Patience is a virtue

I hate it when my mouth acts faster than my brain and end up upsetting or hurting someone (unless that someone's a total prick.). My Mom always tells me to consider thinking first before talking OR just shut up when I have nothing nice to say. Oh well. When we're too caught up in our emotions... things happen.

Oh and can somebody kindly tell me to stop feeling inip already?! FEW days na lang, anobanamanako?

We can stay in the darkness, I don't mind

I saw you and my heart skipped a beat. Like literally, it skipped a beat. It wasn't even that long, this "LDR" week we had. It's official, you've turned me into a clingy girl. You've made my heart clingy. 

Thank you for the goodies. I love Florence + The Machine more than ever because of you. Didn't think it would be possible but hey, everything about you (and us) has been out of the ordinary.

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

- Cosmic Love, Florence + The Machine

Drive me away cause the night just feels right

"Sit back, relax, and let me do the driving..."

Isn't this just the nicest thing to hear? But ONLY from someone you fully trust of course. Obviously, metaphorically speaking. :D Cause I'm yet to convince myself to take interest in literal driving.

A stubborn little brat who thinks highly of herself. Hates being ordered around. Believes to have figured out life's complexities and the art of dealing with it since she was 9 years old. Talk about an egotistic swellhead! Gusto ko ako lang ang di-diskarte, magpa-plano at mag-iisip mag isa. Angas-angasan ba. Ganun ako noon. And now I'm 22, life isn't the same. Not that I'm discrediting everything stated above but its just... you know. When you get a tad bit older, you become wiser to know that things, and life per se isn't JUST like that. Assuming I'm bright enough to entrust my "driving" to someone or something or somewhere else truly, truly capable and worthy, other than myself... things should be fine. And having mentioned my age, I guess it's safe to say that I don't fear as much now. LOL, I'm talking here as if I'm 40!

Sabi nga, bring it on!:P

Let's all try hard to make no mistake in choosing who or what'd help you drive in this road of life. You'll never know. If you have that strong gut feeling you'd rather do all the driving, or most of it maybe, then do so. It could be a happier trip with someone beside you though :D

I keep the faith.

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Parked car

This night sky

Makes city lights shine like diamonds

Our song plays on the radio.

We're living it up

Make this night ours

We own the world

I wish this lasts forever

Alone with you tonight

Further in you feels so right.

Parked car

This night sky

Makes city lights shine like diamonds

Our song plays on the radio.

We're giving it up and just a little more

This heart felt leap I surrender

Arms raised tonight. (arms raised)

We're giving it up and just a little more

This heart felt leap I surrender

Arms raised tonight. (arms raised)

Anywhere with you

Anywhere with you

Anywhere with you

Drive me away

Cuz the night just feels right

Take me away with you tonight

Anywhere with you.

Drive me away

Cuz the night just feels right

Take me away with you tonight

Anywhere with you.

Parked car, this night sky

Parked car

This night sky

Makes city lights shine like diamonds

Our song plays on, our song plays on,

Our song plays on, our song plays on

Our song plays on…

Parked car, night sky

Alone with you tonight…

- First of Summer, Urbandub

61 Days

J,

I've forgotten all about how it is to love and be loved. I'm afraid I am not yet ready. I'm afraid to take the leap. I'm afraid to fall into oblivion. But as you held my hand, I felt a flicker inside of me. I crave to feel your palms against mine again. Always... I crave.

It has been 61 days since we met, my love. I never thought it would end up like this considering how we met. But that's what makes us special. Most people don't understand us and to be honest, I like it that way. Fuck social norms, I say! We'll make everyone jealous of how ridiculously happy we are in our own world with all our crazy adventures, and fucking good music.

Here's a mixtape I made for you. 61 songs for the 61 awesome days we've been "together". Yes, this is a little cheesy (okay, maybe more than a little) but who gives a fuck?

Strange + Beautiful, A Mixtape

Just like my favorite Aqualung song goes, to me you're strange and you're beautiful. Thank you for everything. You make me so happy. You make me feel alive. And like what I told you before, we'll cross the bridge when get there.

Love,

L

Ruby Tuesday

In the most unexpected moment, there it was. Shape, shade, movement, scent. Too vivid. I'm in love with the enemy.

No. I'm just amusingly attracted. But I don't know an enemy. I have none that I can think of actually. And if by chance I'd have one, for certain, it won't be another human being. But I'll stop before I start freaking you out.

Goodbye, Ruby Tuesday
Who could hang a name on you?
When you change with every new day
Still I'm gonna miss you...

For? My known Ruby Tuesday. Maybe in time I'll be introduced to my new one. Wednesday has been treating me well enough though. And for that coffee + yosi break earlier, you made my day, suweetgeezus! You might actually be the enemy I'm talking about.


HAHAHA!

I miss Tegan & Sara

And so's writing, reading, running and yoga, to name a few.

I've been on a blogging hiatus. I'm too busy living. Haha. Right! Will try to update my blog as soon as possible. Wish me luck!

Build a wall of books
Between us in our bed
Repeat, repeat the words
That I know we both said
Relax into the need
We get so comfortable
Remember when I was
So strange and likeable
I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little
When I jerk away from
Holding hands with you
I know these habits hurt
Important parts of you
Remember when I was
Sweet and unexplainable
Nothing like this person,
Unlovable
I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little
Run, run, run Run Run, run, run
Run I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
- Back In Your Head, Tegan & Sara